so much has happened the past few days. sent randall and kj to tekong, went for my first hiphop class at oschool with jiaqian and some other ppl, went to aunt ginny's church service, discovered the honey and clover mystery (more to find out), bouts with normen.. the last two has made my brain especially tired..

maybe i should just not care too much, and take things as they are. then i would be happier and more at ease.

at times the desire comes again, to love and to be loved, for someone to watch out for me. does it have anything to do with age? or is it a feeling that is common to people of all ages? i don't know. but each year as i step away from the nightmare, it starts to seem like a sweet dream again. still, after much consideration, it just isn't worth it. at least, not at the moment. so i'm gonna continue waiting. after all, it's better to find the right bed first so i can sleep really really well and never get up again.