new year resolutions
finally time. im one or two days late though. (:
1. lose weight
stupid thing! hahaha. this one is forever on the top of my list and it hasnt gone away yet!! rarhh. *kg.
2. peace
inner peace
this one struck me during service that day. i realised i can never find peace within cos i always find things about myself that i absolutely hate and cannot accept. don really noe how to go about making things better though. for the moment i will just, pray.. then see how..
peace with others
i hope with this year i can start treating everyone properly and not act weirdly, which sometimes i tend to do. haha! why huhhh. i also don noe. and i hope i wont be tied down by past unhappiness and let it affect the way i handle people. yupp.
3. closer walk with God
need to work on it. daily devotions for a start.
4. a fruitful and meaningful break before uni
so far my hols has been spectacular fun. =D whee. but that aside i wanna squeeze more than just fun out of my carefree days before uni slams in! volunteering, maybe. or finding a job, esp aft everyone (normen last) is gone.
so far that's about it.. 2008 has been a great year, despite the stress i felt over alot of issues. esp since the last few hours of 2008 were one of the most fun hours of my life. got to find true friends in s36 (as compared to when i was in j1 and all i did was hate my new ct and hang out with the dancers), dance, spend time with my family..
may 2009 be even better! =D =D more than half a year i will be free. that sounds sooooooo pleasant to my ears! =D ill be looking forward to being able to drive! yay yay yayy! =D =D =D
on a more serious note, ive been thinking alot after the whole saga. if its true that this person i sincerely love and treat as a close bud can intentionally do such a thing, i fear to think who i can trust and who i cannot. sometimes its better to just not be so sincere. then whatever happens at least i wouldn't feel as.. cant even find the word. hurt? cheated? don noe. okay bad. its a negative thing though i cant exactly hit the nail on the head. and am i supposed to just ignore it like it doesnt matter? am i supposed to look at you and pretend i see you in the same light? hmmm.. okay my answer is yes. even if that makes me a pretender. and in the meantime i will do my best to forgive and forget. cos after all thats what friends do for each other.
good. after some rambling i feel the love coming back to me.. =)
1. lose weight
stupid thing! hahaha. this one is forever on the top of my list and it hasnt gone away yet!! rarhh. *kg.
2. peace
inner peace
this one struck me during service that day. i realised i can never find peace within cos i always find things about myself that i absolutely hate and cannot accept. don really noe how to go about making things better though. for the moment i will just, pray.. then see how..
peace with others
i hope with this year i can start treating everyone properly and not act weirdly, which sometimes i tend to do. haha! why huhhh. i also don noe. and i hope i wont be tied down by past unhappiness and let it affect the way i handle people. yupp.
3. closer walk with God
need to work on it. daily devotions for a start.
4. a fruitful and meaningful break before uni
so far my hols has been spectacular fun. =D whee. but that aside i wanna squeeze more than just fun out of my carefree days before uni slams in! volunteering, maybe. or finding a job, esp aft everyone (normen last) is gone.
so far that's about it.. 2008 has been a great year, despite the stress i felt over alot of issues. esp since the last few hours of 2008 were one of the most fun hours of my life. got to find true friends in s36 (as compared to when i was in j1 and all i did was hate my new ct and hang out with the dancers), dance, spend time with my family..
may 2009 be even better! =D =D more than half a year i will be free. that sounds sooooooo pleasant to my ears! =D ill be looking forward to being able to drive! yay yay yayy! =D =D =D
on a more serious note, ive been thinking alot after the whole saga. if its true that this person i sincerely love and treat as a close bud can intentionally do such a thing, i fear to think who i can trust and who i cannot. sometimes its better to just not be so sincere. then whatever happens at least i wouldn't feel as.. cant even find the word. hurt? cheated? don noe. okay bad. its a negative thing though i cant exactly hit the nail on the head. and am i supposed to just ignore it like it doesnt matter? am i supposed to look at you and pretend i see you in the same light? hmmm.. okay my answer is yes. even if that makes me a pretender. and in the meantime i will do my best to forgive and forget. cos after all thats what friends do for each other.
good. after some rambling i feel the love coming back to me.. =)
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